A heavy heart and sunken eyes…
That’s what I have since last week. I can’t forget any minute of the gruesome
incident. L. Why do people have to pass away and leave us behind! L
Life plays chess with us. We try to
protect everything that is beloved to us, but often lose. It is true. But
happiness is not just when everything goes right. Happiness is when we feel a
good fresh breeze on our face; when we drink a cool gulp of soft drink in the
hot sun; when we look in the mirror and see a beautiful person; when we see our
loved ones hold us in our pain. It has been a long wait. Four long years.
[Five years ago] Wandering in our
dormitory corridor, I went to every room in the floor looking for movies they
had in store. Guess no one was interested to share happiness. But Dessy, my
neighbour, was busy using up her share, at a single go. Her best was, 14 movies
at a stretch. That is in 3 days without sleep. Yeah... so as I was saying, Dessy, handed over
her thumb drive and showed me the “leave” emote. : P
I know, I know. Nothing good happens
after 2 AM. But I had to do get over my unhappy mood. Know what! My work was
good, but, but, but, people in it do their best to mess up your wonderful days.
Yea. Horrible bosses. I have my journal on it coming up. So… to get over my
bitter slimy days, I decided to spice up my night rides. ;). Oh no no! It’s not
what you think it is. I became a Movie Buff. But that day, I ran out of the
supplies. So Dessy, did a refill.
That was the night, I fell in love. J
(This is a blushing smiley). Like the most of the times in my life, I totally
fell in love, felt happy, literally, sat back and relaxed. I fancied myself in
my 40s or 50s and narrating to my children about how I met their father. J.
The cracked pot version of me, had decided what to wear, when he proposes on
one knee with a blue French horn. AAAAHhhhh… Perfect. He is a keeper for a life
time.
I like it when he is with his best
buddies. They are together for 9 years now.
A string attached is for a lifetime. I promised myself that I will not
wither my future and will not keep any secrets from each other, just like them.
J .I should admit. That’s not the only reason I like their life. They
get to grub mouthful French fries and burgers and grab beer bottles all the
time ;). Not that I love beer. But their pub serves delicious food too. A Cosy
place for a booze. : P. I wouldn’t splash out a lot on drinks though. ;).
Should I say it? I love his friend
too. Not sure if it is ethical. In fact, I love his friend more than I love
him. He dresses as an executive most days. Naah. Not most days, but always.
Even in bedK. Pretty formal, huh!!! I gobsmacked when I knew what he does
for fun [that is the only thing he does]. He dresses up as a skittle-juggler or
a road-side hotdog seller or even as a Gay transsexual. His hobbies are doing
the unexpected and to make women fall for him. Guess I am one of those women,
myself. He is Awesome!! No no.. The right word is “Legendary”. J.
To my envy, he fell for the clear
skinned, sparkling eyes, brown haired, soft lipped TV anchor. Yea. She is so
pretty and witty. Her confused look is her most beautiful gesture. And her next
best is when she has to lie or hide something for friendship. She is a
heartthrob of many but she never gives up her own. Let’s go to the mall, is her
catch phrase. But Um… Isn’t she a li’l old to be going to the mall? Life goes
on as it takes you. “Just booze, sleep around and get back to work” … totally
works for her. J.
Wrapping up a day’s work and still
full of beans. During my evening schedule, I used to faff around and may be
have a kip. : P. Life is not so bad after all. The cup of green tea, could leg
me through my zonked out afternoons. But getting back to my friends and having
the boost for a day long, is something worth a do.
It continued each night and on weekends.
A 24 minute humdrum every night. I then
foresaw that this pace of my intense tabloid would end our bond all at once. So
I would hold back a bit and saved a piece of it to survive another beautiful
day. But Aaah..!!! Crikey!!! I got married. I GOT MARRIED…!!!! [That was 3
years later] I got a bit gutted in the beginning. Marriage is colourful, tastes
sweet and falls melodiously into your ears. But my work factory still had a
stroppy mob strangling my respiratory organs enough to get me blue. It made me
realize that life puzzles fall out of fit when your friends are forgotten.
I coaxed my better-half to begin a
new amity with my pals and believe me; he was chuffed to bits...:P. He loved
them and there; I re-did my good old days from the beginning. It was all so
fun-filled and joyous. Every day I fell in love a little more.
[Narrating their story…] He falls in
love again and gets dumped again, but still carries the spirit. But finally, he
finds his missing puzzle. My ideal
couple; breakup, and gather their pieces back together and are having a baby
together. My favourite guy falls for my favourite beautiful woman. My anxiety
blew up every single night. The happy thing is that we (me and my man) did it
together and with a hop of interest.
[Last week] I couldn’t hold back my
keen impatient heart to get to chin wag with my old pals (old as in not old,
but for how long we knew each other). Blimey!!!
I could see my crushed heart bleed and the pieces drown down to the deep blue
ocean; no corners or boundaries. My favourite people. Lilly and Marshall’s son
is going to college. (That dint hurt), Barney and Robin
got married (that dint hurt) and got a divorce in 3 months (That
did hurt a little), Barney fathered a beautiful baby girl (that
dint hurt), Ted’s wife passed away (what!!! What!!! Why?! I mean, how?!
And why... that did hurt a lot). L.
I waited for 5 long years to get to
the “...and they lived happily ever after…”, and it all went pear-shaped. I
wept a portion of the night and conked-off on my beloved’s happy story. These
people held when I was high and low and blue and red.
I gathered myself up and made
believe the following as the Climax of the series “How I Met Your Mother!”
1.
Ted and Tracey and their
two kids lived happily ever after.
2.
Robin and Barney get
back together and together with their daughter live happily ever after.
3.
Lilly and Marshall and
their 3 kids lived happily ever after
This is my happy ending to the
happiness that drove me through my most tough times. J.
I am still “waiting for it”, I mean waiting for the happy show on TV. A lot
about friendship, a lot about Love, a lot about pain and loss and makeups. It
is Legendary. J.
